Death takes away a loved one..

• Today has not been a good day.. My grandfather passed away just now at bout 8 sumthing pm.. I must say that I was already quite prepared so I wasn't in such a bad shape la k.. But still, death is something that hits you right there all the time.. Losing someone you love is really not something that is quite so easy to cope with.. I was sitting there just now thinking bout how close I was to my grandfather when I was younger.. How he would pick me back from school, how he praised me for being smart in school, how he always always encouraged me to read books.. And I realised over the years as I grew up, I spent less and less time with him.. And now, he's gone.. No more times like those days.. I'd do anything to go back to those days, but that's not possible..

• All I've been doing the whole night is convincing myself that at least I saw him this afternoon, at least he had his sons and daughter around him when he moved on.. And I know for certain that he doesn't have to suffer now.. And that God has took him to a better place and God loves him more.. But it's still difficult and very heart-breaking to know that I'll never see my grandfather anymore.. Really, sometimes life just seems like chapters of goodbye.. All the wonderful people in our lives, ultimately, we're still going to have to say bye sooner or later right? But I shall think on the bright side, and think that even after the goodbyes have been said, the memories of that person still lingers.. And the way the person touched us, and changed our lives, that can never be taken away by goodbye..

Ah Kong, wherever you are now, I know you're with God.. And I'll miss you a lot, but I know you'll be happier now cuz you don't have to suffer.. I wanna cry, but I don't think you will want me to cry.. And neither does God.. For he had His reasons for taking you away from our family here.. And who am I to argue with His reasons? But anyways, I'm sorry for all the times I might have neglected you and forgot you because I was so busy trying to live my life, that I pushed aside the important aspect of life, which is family.. I wish I could change it all, but you and I both know I can't.. But I treasure all the memories I had with you, especially when I was a little girl.. How I would just sit next to you and you would tell me all sorts of stories.. I also remember the times when you keep saying I'm a clever girl and you praise me for all my results.. I miss those days, and I'm already missing you.. Whatever it is, know that I'll remember you always and I'll love you forever..

• P/s: I actually wanted to blog bout more things.. But it didn't feel right.. So I'm stopping here..