Bliss with a tinge of sorrow.. Sigh..

• Today so completely, totally rocked!! Minus the fact that I sweat like crazy and I'm exhausted.. But it was DEFINITELY for a VERY good cause and reason.. Lol.. Because... *drumroll* I bought 19 story books!! Hahaha.. Went to MPH warehouse sale and it was so totally worth it!! Almost all the Chic Lit books were cheaper by like 10 to 15 bucks.. Oh and in addition to that, on the way there we saw Voir warehouse sale.. So stopped there also.. And I got new pants, heels and belt!! Yippee!!

• Ok so besides that, the weirdness of it all.. I should be feeling so on top of the world.. But that's not exactly happening now.. I spoke to Daryl in church just now.. And he got me missing my Ns frens and times.. Sigh.. I completely agree u know, those were the times I din hv to worry bout anything!! No emoness oso loh.. All fun, all laughter.. I really wanna go back to those times la..

• In addition to all that, I just wanna rag on a bit la.. I mean like all this while I keep it in, and I know I can handle it, but I'd be lying if I said it doesn't hurt.. Cuz it does.. But I know I'm strong enough la.. Definitely.. But it's difficult.. I dunno la.. I'm one hack of a confused person now la.. It's like I feel happy, but with a tinge of emoness.. Yet I'm pushing it away.. So all that's left now is this weird, indescribable feeling..

• And this weird feeling is leading to even MORE weird feelings.. I suddenly really really miss the other 4 clowns.. I wan my insane friends with me again.. and I wanna hang out in Dunkin Donuts like the good old days again.. The fact that I feel weird makes me realise that in those weird times, I always had them.. Not anymore.. We're too far and scattered away.. I hate changing and moving from my comfort zone.. I dunno how to end this post oso now.. I guess I'll just say bye..