=not very stable at the moment=

• Yup, I'm not feeling so stable la.. I think I'm having Pms.. There's just no way of running from Pms la huh..
• As I type out this bloody post, I'm in tears..
• I dunno la, maybe it's cuz I'm all alone at home, so everything is just getting to me..
• No really, I wanna stress that I am NOT going through an emo time, it's just at the spur of the moment oni..
• I was just going through my pictures, and I stopped when I saw the pictures of us..
• I looked into our eyes in the pic and the tears just came flowing..
• Life is never fair.. We never get what we want..
• Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have..
• I'm the only person who knows how much I want it..
• Many may say that they understand, but as long as they don't feel the way I feel, they'll never understand..
• At times even I don't understand myself..
• So many say that I'm strong.. But I ask myself, am I?? Really??
• I quote Gabriella from HSM3, "I ran out of goodbyes.."
• I don't know if I have the strength to say that goodbye when it comes..

• +Dear God, if you're not gonna give me what I want, then don't even let me see it.. Cuz when I get even a glimpse of it, everything becomes harder..To see, to know and most importantly to feel what that can never be mine.. It breaks my heart and it hurts a million times more.. And it's cruel to do something like that to me.. I beg you not to..+

A weekend alone...

• Ya, the title says it all.. I'm all alone this weekend..
• Well not exactly la cuz I'm with the maid.. But still!!!!
• My family has gone to spend the night at Meridian Hotel.. But cuz of that BLASTED Spm, I'm at home la.. Shhheeesssshh..
• Well, it's actually not too bad la.. Other than the occasional boredom..

• And since I got pretty much nothing to blog bout, I shall talk bout a movie I watched ystd la..
• Ya ok it's High School Musical 3.. haha..
• And mind you, it is not that bad.. quite enjoyable actually if you like dancing and musicals..
• Well one thing I must say really hit me in the movie were all the times they talked bout separating and graduating..
• I kinda teared at those times, cuz ya, it's gonna happen to me pretty soon..
• The future's unpredictable and that scares me a lot, cuz i'll be away from the comfort of having my friends and classmates with me..
• It's a whole new journey that I have to go through, because it's part of life..
• My dear 5 Intan classmates, I love you guys so much and really, I couldn't have asked for better classmates..

• Well other than the occasional weird over-the-top hand actions while singing, the movie was fine la..
• Songs are better round this time.. Lyrics more meaningful.. Until I actually felt touched by some songs.. Haha..
• My fav for now is "Can I have This Dance"..
• Reminds me of prom.. And reminds me also that I do NOT possess a date..
• And I will most likely NOT have a date.. 2 yrs in a row.. Oh wow.. Lol..
• Ya and it's reminding me that our plans for deco are NO WHERE near done.. (Do you hear me, Phoebe Lim and Melissa Ong???)
• I have no idea how things will turn out.. Only time will tell..

got tagged again.. three things..

• three names you go by :

1. Manda
2. Amanda
3. Alvin

• three screen names you have had :

1. AJ
2. Amanda
3. Manda

• three physical things you like about yourself :

1. my eye colour
2. my hair
3. my lips =)

• three physical things you don't like about yourself :

1. Gain too much weight too fast.. sigh..
2. dry skin.. sobs..
3. huge thighs.. ugly ugly ugly..

• three parts of your heritage :

1. Erm, chinese??
2. Chinese??
3. And Chinese??

• three things that scare you :

1. Losing my family and friends
2. Dying
3. Creepy crawlies

• three of your everyday essentials :

1. PHONE!!!!
2. Lip balm
3. Water?? Lol..

• three things you are wearing now :

1. Hairband
2. T-shirt
3. Shorts

• three of your favourite bands or musical acts :

1. Secondhand Serenade
2. Paramore
3. Daughtry

• three of your favourite songs (right now) :

1. River flows in you (Bella's lullaby)
2. Lovebug
3. When God Made You

• three things you want in a relationship :

1. LOVE!!!!
2. Understanding
3. Laughter

• three physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to you :

1. Smile
2. Eyes
3. Dressing

• three of your hobbies :

1. Msging ppl
2. Reading story books
3. Anything music related.. Especially singing..

• three things you wanna do really badly right now :

1. SLEEP!!!!
2. Eat
3. Dance.. haha..

• three careers you're considering/considered before :

1. Singer (this was when I was a small girl la..)
2. Event Manager (Really I would LOVE to do this..)
3. Journalist (I enjoy writing.. A lot..)

• three places you want to go on vacation :

1. Greece
2. France
3. Italy

• three things you want to do before you die :

1. Get married to the right guy and have my dream wedding
2. Tell all family and friends that I love them and thank them for everything they have ever done for me
3. Get a hug from all my family and friends

• five people that you would like to see take this quiz now :

1. Naim
2. Renu
3. Mark
4. Flora
5. Chong

~Graduation Lunch!!~

• Finally, today's event.. graduation.. after 4 posts, i survived and got here.. haha..
• At this point I don't really feel like typing anything.. So once again, just short descriptions la k..
• But I must say, the teachers all said they enjoyed our sketch..
• Though it was SOOOO spontaneous, we pulled it off..
• Seriously we made a million last min changes this morning itself.. Haha..
• Still we made everyone laugh.. Well what can I say.. 5 Intan rocks!!!

• ~Phoeb, me, Lis, Lynne and Lilian..~

• ~Wei and me.. (If you scroll back to the wedding post, you'll see a pic of me and wei.. Notice that for some reason we had da EXACT same expression as in this pic!!! Freaky..)~

• ~The Chemistry Five~

• ~Tun and Me~

• ~Today's birthday girl, Reen and Me~

• This is how I interpret our faces!!
• Esther Me
• This is so amusing it tires me.. Why am I here again??
• If they don't give me the food now, there's gonna be trouble!!

• ~Mastahh Kim and Manda aka Honey~

~Nazie, Tun, Me, Wei and Renu~

• ~5 Intaners.. Lene, Phoeb, Me, Lis, Naim, Lynne and Lilian~

• ~"The bloody speeches are SOOOOO boring!!!"~

• ~Miss Ecstatic, Miss I-Am-Thinking, Miss Drunk..~

• ~Debaters unite!! (I miss my debating days, Renu..)~

• ~Now believe it or not, ALL these food for 4 people.. Haha..~

• ~Intan and Rubi.. Naim, Jhen, Me, Ann, Lis, Abby and Renu~

• ~More Intaners.. Naim, Shob, Chris, Me and Renu~

• 

• ~My discipline teachers and Me, the not-so-good-ex-prefect~

• ~My form 1 and 2 science teacher, Cik Azizah and me~

• ~Our sketch director, Chong and Me~

• ~The teacher whom I fear the most, Cik Besira and Me~

• ~5 Intan class teacher, Puan Sakuntala and Me~

• ~My amazing debate teacher, Puan Nirmala and Me~

• ~The superb, kick-ass, a lil crazy, one and only 5 Intan!!~

• ~The teacher who calls me Quack, Puan Pushpa and Me(Quack)~

• ~Jeeva and Me.. (This fella sat beside me in std1.. we introduced ourselves by writing our names on the table.. Lol..)~

• ~The add maths genius, Wendy and Me..~

• ~My amma, Mishan and Me.. ~

• ~Ahem, Lilian.. you can tip-toe but I am STILL taller than you!! Haha..~

• ~Sampat one and Sampat two~

• ~I gave Guga the pleasure of being taller than me la.. ~

• ~Future mafia leaders, you guys?? Haha..~

• ~The retarded acts of my classmates and me..~

• ~The next singing sensation, Eunice and Me..~

• Now, please undersstand that Phoeb and I got bored in the car on the way back..
• So when boredom hits, this is what happens la.. Haha..

• ~A normal, civilised picture~

• Then, all hell broke loose..
• Phoeb and I unleashed our "camwhoring" demons.. Lol..

• ~Let's see who pouts better??~

• ~Omg, AHHHHHH~

• ~Uh-huh, the GIRLS are in the hood.. haha..~

• ~The failed mafia what's up look..~

• ~Yay me, I killed Phoeb!!~

• ~You see our hands more than our faces.. haha..~

• ~Blur but I like the whole effect la.. haha..~

• And this picture concludes my blogging for today..
• Read all and enjoy!!

Phoeb's 17th Birthday!!

• So it was Phoeb's birthday.. And we din wanna go sch, but was FORCED to.. Cuz had to prac for our graduation performance..
• So we basically sat in the pavilion the whole entire day..
• And smart me brought camera la.. So took pics almost all the time wen we were not practicing..

• ~Naim aka Ratatouille and Me!!~

• ~Renu and me..~

• ~Now the 4 of us were not in the 1st scene of the sketch.. And they took an ETERNITY trying to get it right.. So it led to this la.. (Look down.. Lol..)~

• ~Yellow and red t-shirts=Melissa Ong and Amanda Quah!!~

• ~The birthday girl for that day(16th Oct) and Me..~

• ~More stupid stunts la.. Told you we were bored k.. haha..~

• ~In case you cannot identify the faces.. Catherine, Phoeb, Lis, Renu, Naim, Celine and me..~

• Now I really should tell you bout Kim's hamsters.. They're called Cream and Puff.. Cream is the light-coloured one and she's the female..
• Puff is the dark-coloured one and he is the male..
• According to Kim, the night before Phoeb's bday, Puff tried to "rape" Cream.. Haha..
• Even hamsters wanna have fun la wei.. Lol.. omg..
• And oh ya.. Phoeb is Godmother num1 to the hamsters.. And I am Godmother num2..

• ~My Godchildren, Cream and Puff..~

• After a long, long day of practicing, we finally headed for Pizza and arrived..
• And it took so long to organise everyone to sit down.. Cuz Pizza was pretty packed and there were 13 of us..
• After settling down, Naim started her alien work la.. Claims that she is psychic and can predict the future..

• ~Naim at work.. Predicting Phoeb's "future"..~

• Everything in between was boring, we basically ate oni la.. Den the fun part came.. Cake time.. Wei and I were the ones who went and got it..
• Wrote a very interesting wish for Phoeb on her cake.. Lol..

• ~Choc banana cake.. It says "Happy 17th B'day Dear Phoeb (V-Smack)! It's an insiders joke.. If you don't get it den come ask me, I'll see if I feel like telling you.. Haha..~

• ~Phoeb's 17th birthday cake.. All the lighted candles up this time..~

• ~Aww, bday girl looks so happy..~

• ~Bday girl made her wish and is seen blowing off the candles..~

• ~Bday girl cutting her cake..~

• ~And of course, we made her do this.. Bday girl taking the candle out of the cake with her mouth..~

• Finally, no birthday would be complete without the cream la..
• Wei and I started this time.. She took Phoeb's left, I took the right..
• Then after that Phoeb spent da whole 10 mins chasing us..
• We were running round and round the table..
• Finally, I kena from Naim, I hit back at her.. Haha.. Kim kena from Phoeb..
• Then we realise Lis and Renu were really clean, so they also got it la.. Lol..
• Halfway through Mark came to drop off Phoeb's present..
• And I believe we scared him la.. haha..
• And by the way, Lene, Chong, Ng, Eunice and whoever else who were so clean.. You wait la you gonna get it soon.. haha..

• ~Creamed-up birthday girl~

• After all that fun, Phoeb, Lis and I sadly had to go for Accounts tuition..
• Mr Wong made fun of da hamsters saying they stink.. (They did not, Kim bathed them edi wan)
• The hamsters were with Phoeb cuz she's babysitting them over the weekend..
• We got bored at tuition as usual..

• ~Simon, Alvin and Theodore.. The singing "chipmunks"..~

• ~I apparently became the centre of attraction.. Haha..~