I miss you guys..

• DAMN LA.. how can I be so happy 1 minute and then so depressed the next?
• I need to blog this out la k.. So pls don't mind me..
• I think talking to Renu just now completely changed my mood.. (I'm not blaming u, Renu, dun worry k..)

To those who do not know I am going NS la k.. on the 27th of dec.. Well, I was originally upset but after a while I thought it would be a good thing la.. I mean, a lot of people said that they do have fun there, so y not right? I was pretty ok bout it, Sandy also helped make me more positive bout it.. Besides, I need to getaway frm this place la k.. I know we cant run, but at the moment I just need to go away for a while la.. Never gave much of a thought edi.. until maybe ystd, n today..

• Someone said that my plan to go away might backfire on me instead.. And I never wanted to think bout it, but I have to admit, there's a very high possibility of that happening..
• And then I realise, I'm so gonna miss everyone.. My family, my friends..
• It's so difficult to put this into words now.. I dunno why cuz I usually dun hv a prob with words..
• I never gave much of a thought bout finishing sch cuz I've been busy bout prom..
• While talking to Renu just now, something hit me.. And I realise that I really, really miss my friends..
• Especially Renu, Naim, Phoeb and Lis..
• And then it led me to thinking, how am I gonna survive 2 and a half months of not seeing them?
• Not having those I love for that 2 and a half months.. Even worse, I can oni msg and call them on the weekends..
• Not even having my church buddies whom I see every week.. missing out on choir practises, playing and singing for mass..
• The only reason why I'm going through with this is cuz I'm convinced that I need to getaway for a while and that it'll do me good..
• But now I'm thinking, what if it does not work? and the plan seriously backfires?
• This is the only thing I can think of now.. my only lifeline.. it HAS to work..
• And damn I really miss those 4 idiots..
• (Renu, u better hv meant what u said.. drive to pd and find me k!!)
• Not only them, i'll miss the choir ppl too..
• Fred, Flora, Ash, Sher, Mark, Shaun, Sandy..
• God better make this work.. Cuz if it doesnt, I'm going away and losing time that I can spend with my loved ones for no reason..

this is getting way WAY too emo for me.. I gotta go.. And talk to someone who can make me laugh..