defeat

Despite the fact that I very much do NOT wanna say this, but I have to face reality.. we lost our battle.. Form 5 Intan, Berlian and Zamrud are officially streamed into 5 Terbilang, Gemilang and Cemerlang.. Despite our continuous protests and explanation, our "Amazing dearest good mother" principal still went on with it.. It was a very, very emotional day.. We were called down to the pavilion and Pn. Munawirah told us our new classes.. the look on everyone's faces was clear.. we do not wanna spend the last few months of our school life like that.. but what can we do? We are directly below her "reign" and are unable to say anything..

When we went back to class, it finally hit me that that half an hour or so was the very last that I would have together with all the 5 Intaners.. and that very fact just completely shook me up and I cried.. And for some the reason the minute I started, so did Renu, Wei, Reen, Naim.. I did not wanna part with my classmates, I'm sure neither of us did.. we all went round hugging each other.. I was actually still pretty controllable until I hugged Reen.. she's being streamed into Gemilang.. I hugged that girl and cried my heart out.. the very same girl who has sat beside me for 4 and a half years.. So much has changed and happened since we were innocent first- formers.. And at the time where it's our last times together, we're taken away from each other.. Many things have happened and we have changed a lot for sure, but she's still one of my best buds.. and I love her a lot.. then it was Naim's turn.. My fellow master..(insiders' joke)..I knew this girl since last year.. But how I've become so very close to her.. My physics buddy.. I'm gonna miss all her insane acts in class, all her lame attempts to make me laugh.. And despite their lameness, she still makes me laugh, simply cuz it's so lame.. And I'll especially miss her singing Say(All I need) to me everyday.. But most importantly, I'll miss her because she is who she is and she is a great friend.. Well, it's not only these two, it's every single one of my classmates.. Especially the close ones like Kim, Chong, Lilian, Charlene, Chris, Ferlynne, Eunice... sighs.. I was truly amazed today.. So many people who I never thought will be so emotional about this were actually crying.. It showed me that many of us actually value our friends a lot.. I know I should be open-minded and try to adapt to the new environment and fit in.. But without all my classmates whom I love so much, it feels like a part of me is missing.. I guess in a way, God is showing me that at times I do take even my friends for granted.. but now that we're gonna be separated I realise how much they mean to me..and how things will be different without them.. Sure, we may quarrel a lot at times and disagree bout a lot, but at the end of the day, These are the very people who coloured my high school life.. So I'll definitely miss them.. To all 5 Intaners, I love you guys a lot.. Always and always.. We'll always be THE 5 Intan to me.. once a 5 Intan, always a 5 Intan..