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I honestly need to just talk things out.. n cuz i dunno who to talk to, i'll talk to my blog la.. If u are reading this now, unless u're involved in it, i suggest that u do not ask me anything k.. cuz i wouldn't know what to say.. well firstly, i believe that confirmation camp might have altered me for the better..i'm proud to say that for this whole 1 week plus, i have not uttered the "F" word.. haha.. everytime it almost comes outta my mouth, i remember da bible verse proverbs 18:21.. not oni me but even wei n chris are doing a really good job at avoiding the word.. haha.. well besides that, i seem to have forgotten how to be emo.. it's really amazing.. bout 2 days ago, i was in deep thought bout my past n how it's resurfacing but unlike da old me, i did not cry.. da freaky thing was that i can smile n was happy samore.. n this is NOT a lie.. well on a more serious note, things have happened.. n this is the exact reason why I was so worried in the first place.. in order to protect privacy, names shall not be mentioned..let's see, i am like placed in the middle of a tangled web of confusion.. Guy A likes girl A, but girl A doesn't seem to like him.. but at the same time, Girl B likes guy A, but he obviously is waiting for Girl A.. n in between all this here comes Guy B who likes Girl A too.. n u know wat's the worst thing, Girl A and B are really good friends.. n da next worst thing is that i am stuck in the MIDDLE!!! everyone tells me stuff and I know everything and I'm being put in a very difficult position.. sighs.. why me?? and in addition to all this, I myself seem to have completely gone bonkers.. Either i'm too happy or i'm feeling empty but cannot cry.. i'm not complaining, don't get me wrong, i just feel weird cuz i'm not accustomed to this different me yet.. n also, i started thinking bout my past again.. and this particular someone keeps popping up into my mind.. but there is no way anything can ever happen.. n now i've to figure out a way to push him out again without jeopardizing our friendship.. hopefully i succeed.. There's a lot of people i just have to eject outta my mind if i wanna be happy n full of laughter.. well, i guess that's it for now..