the moment of truth..

it's me!! after monthly test.. screwed up big time but oh well, my target is trials and spm and this is not something that matters to me.. haha.. to my "dearest" principal maybe but I really do NOT care bout her thoughts, opinions, comments or suggestions anymore.. LOL.. I promised Lene i'll put in more confirmation photos but I damn lazy now so maybe another day la..(that other day might never come if I keep procrastinating but oh well... haha..)

life has been pretty uneventful because of exams.. but how very typical of me to do something to spice my life up la rite?? even at the moments where it's not necessary.. well, I have my reasons la.. firstly I should probably say WHAT I did first.. I'll summarize the best I can la but I do not wanna reveal everything here.. well, despite my efforts of not telling the truth to someone, I did.. I do not know if it was the right thing to do, but it was just that at that moment I felt that I could and I had to.. this part might not make sense to anyone but myself, but this is how it is.. at that very moment, it seemed to me that God gave me every inch of strength I needed..I felt like at that very moment, I could take whatever that was going to be said to me.. and what truly prompted me to let it all out that night was that I was afraid I would lose the strength and courage if I waited.. If I wanted to, I could have continued keeping it all bottled up inside me.. but I did not wanna tell the truth on a day where I would not be able to take what was said to me..so i made use of the strength on that night and told the truth.. so far, I don't regret it.. I'd rather regret something I've done then something I've not.. It was a good thing I did it that night.. cuz true enough, the next day, I lost some of that strength.. I kept thinking of how things will be and I did not feel as strong as I did the night before.. But, I thank God that he is constantly with me and I can always smile and truly say that my life is good.. Despite of what happened, I love my life and I would never trade it in for anything else or anyone elses life.. I cannot deny the fact that part of me wishes that he said something different from what he said to me that night, but I appreciate what was said and I know we'll remain great friends for as long as God allows us to.. God has great plans for me and I have complete and total trust in him.. If what I want isn't part of his plans for me, then I shall wait patiently for his plans to be revealed to me, whatever they might be..