very first post!!

omg, my very 1st post on ma new blog.. was using friendster's blog b4 dis.. well anyways, allow me to enlighten u on da name of my blog.. infinite laughter n craziness.. haha.. well, it's simple, really.. cuz that just simply reflects me..i'm a girl who just laughs n laughs n laughs.. n that leads to craziness.. haha..well neway, today was da day my dear seniors took their spm results.. congrats to all u wonderful over-achievers.. haha.. looking at them makes me feel really scared.. cant imagine myself taking MY spm results next yr.. gotta study.. must must must must..im gonna make it a point... haha..well, it's hols now.. but it doesnt feel lk it.. i've been sooo busy wit debate.. districts is on tues.. in bout 5 days time.. sigh..plus i've been busy wit volleyball too.. sumtimes i wonder y do i get myself involved in so many things?? haha.. i dunno la.. maybe cuz im crazy.. hahaha.. well, life in form 5 is no fun at all.. it's all work n no play according to teachers.. homework piling up lk crazy.. sumtimes i really do hate my life.. there is not 1 moment where i can just sit there n do nothing.. my brains just hv to go on thinking.. bout lots of unnecessary emo stuff.. sigh..lk now for example.. suppose to be doing debate research.. instead, im doing more thinking..hv u ever lost someone n u cannot get over it?? im not talking bout da dying sense, more lk wen a person u really noe suddenly changes..sometimes things lk dat hits u so bad, it's difficult to forget it.. part of me is always always wishing he'll change back n i'll get da old him back.. glimpses of da old him come n go, n leave me wit broken hopes.. anyways, moving on.. jealousy.. big big word.. exactly wat im feeling now..i dunno wat prompted dis jealousy la.. first thing is im sooo jealous of those ppl who hv time to enjoy their hols properly.. who can sit down do nth.. sigh.. i wan dat too evry once in a while.. im tired of runnin up n down frm here to there going back n forth.. next, im jealous of those ppl who hv dat special someone who's there for them.. to hv someone who'll help u, talk to u, be there 4 u.. haih.. anger.. another 1 of da 7 deadly sins.. another 1 which im feeling now oso.. im sooo angry at those idiots who lie to me.. wen i ask, just gimme da truth.. i can handle it.. way better den i handle yr lies.. u noe who u r.. i still think u're lying to me.. not 1 of u but both of u.. plus, im oso angry.. cuz i realise im losing a lot of ppl to a lot of other ppl.. dun get me wrong i dun mean dis da wrong way.. but just dat, i feel it's unfair.. ppl whom i care bout go off 1 by 1.. maybe im meant to be a nun.. haha.. oh well, it's a really long post.. n i think i should stop.. so.. till da next time.. tata!! ~manda~